JUNE 2024
Nic Miller is a writer, poet, musician, and creative. He is currently wrapping up a Bachelors degree in Psychology at the University of Texas in Austin. He plans to pursue a graduate degree and eventually become a professor in the same field.
Nic provides a fresh yet classic style of writing. His tone is blunt and punchy, similar to writers like David Sedaris while also providing a healthy dose of sardonicism and sarcasm like the style of Kurt Vonnegut. On the other hand, his poetry has a vagueness to it that leaves room for the reader to personally interpret and identify.
Although Nic hasn’t previously released or published any of his work, he has a large stock pile that he continues to add to. He is currently compiling a collection of short stories about the many lives he has already lived and experienced with plans to publish and print when complete.
One in a million
Don’t you want to be like them?
A tortured soul
But a brilliant mind?
To have a story
with as tragic an end
as it’s beginning
To feather yourself under their banner
The genius
The artist
The poet
To stand out in a crowd
To wear your name
And be just like them
To be,
One in a million
Restless
Small moments in the dark
On cushions
And under covers
Only the breaks leave their mark
The sun only highlights
The dull lines
Of the hook
That lost its bite
The boy
Look and see how far you’ve come
Funny to think how it was
When you were just a boy
Look now,
Funny to think that you’ve become a man
And to see all that it cost
Algae
There’s nothing past the feeling
The world’s gone flat
Stagnated into a pool
Excitement
Lust
Love
Nothing breaks the surface
Soft ripples
but nothing beyond the pond
Life lives
Beneath the surface
Eric
When we had an especially big property to clear they would send two of us in one truck. Those days came as a relief. The incident at the car dealership and my near-death experience on Broken Arrow Road didn’t leave me giddy to spend more time in the driver’s seat. When we partnered up, I usually got sent out with Eric. Eric was a recovering meth addict who liked obscure online games and pissing in Gatorade bottles. I think the latter was a carry-over from his days living in the attic of Fort Collins Sprinklers where, I’m told, bottles of discolored Glacier Freeze lined the walls. On my first day out with Eric, I was warned by Matt and Marty about the orange bucket that he kept in the back of the cab. I didn’t need to ask too many questions. Pissing in bottles is easy enough, but the logistics of shitting in one gets too messy.
Despite his extracurriculars, I enjoyed the days I spent with Eric. He was kind and easy enough to talk to. He was a man without judgment and I found some safety and understanding in that truck, with its empty cans of off-brand energy drinks and the orange shit bucket rolling around in the back. As an 18-year-old who had just left home for the first time, I was struggling to find my footing in the world. Having lived a life shaped by hardship, Eric offered me a perspective largely absent in my childhood.
I reflect on my time with Eric with both fondness and some level of guilt. I had grown up, as many of us have, looking down on people like him. People who have not only seen, but lived through the faults of our society and fallen victim to them. It’s easy to look down until you’ve been there too. Until you find yourself squatting in some guy’s garden trying to squeeze one out before the last line gets blown. That’s when it occurs to you, at least Eric had the courtesy to bring a bucket.
-Excerpt from God’s Country by Nic Miller